Just a thought...or two!!!

Some days I wonder what it would be like if I did not have a child.

Some days I wonder what it would be like if I did not have a child with special needs.

Some days I feel like the train I am on is more like a merry-go-round going nowhere, slowly.

Some days I feel like the dysfunction is enough to drive me insane, literally.

Then there are the days when:

I hear a new noise coming out of Quentin when I thought there were no new noises.

I hear Quentin laugh and it's one of those belly busting giggles that make me laugh.

I feel like being a mom is the most important thing that I will ever do in my life.

I feel like being Quentin's mom is the most rewarding experience I will ever have in my life.

So today I sit back and smile at the good that has come into my life and craziness that I endure and hope that tomorrow will bring the same, but maybe with a little less crazy!

My little boy turns six today!

I have typed this over and over again and still find it hard to write the right words today. There is so much I want to say, but how? I truly cannot believe that my baby boy is turning six today. It seems like yesterday we were welcoming him into the world. I have so many emotions right now and I'm not sure that I want to share them all, so I'll keep it short and sweet.

On this day six years ago our lives were changed forever, and as I sit here and write I can no longer hold back the tears that flow easily and freely remembering the day so vividly. So for fear that I won't be able to put myself back together again if I continue, I'll say only this..."my cup runneth over".

Dear monkey,

I'll love you forever!

Love,

Mommy